I'm Hurting My Self

i’m hurting myself..
when he has someone else..
i stood still..

i’m hurting myself..
when he has someone else..
i kept deny it..

i’m hurting myself..
when he said he loves me..
i trusted him..

i’m hurting myself..
when he said good bye..
i thought it was momentarily..



i’m hurting myself
when he walked away from me..
i pretend that he was not..

and now, i try not to hurt myself anymore by hoping and wishing for his happiness
but.. why does it hurt so much…?